Dr Marvin? Dr Leo Marvin?

So. For anyone who missed the goings-on yesterday... it was that part of the show where we realize my cervix is open and if I'm not careful, the baby will fall out.
Well, not exactly. But contractions are the enemy. I have gone on a new drug, Procardia... it's actually a heart drug but it is supoosed to help relax the uterine muscles and help prevent preterm delivery. I have to take it every 6 hours, even overnight. So far, it seems to be helping. I know I've had less contractions. I also got Ambien and slept soundly for the first time in weeks.
If I was doing this for money, it wouldn't be worth it. But for a baby.... small price.

Even so, though. Definitely bringing up the issue of future pregnancies/no future pregnancies. We feel strongly about the way God has directed us this far... just seems like future pregnancies would be too difficult to manage with the army we are amassing.
Anyhoo. Richy took the day off today to regroup and make upstairs self-sustaining... and to pray.

See, the whole thing is pretty much out of our hands. We're doing the medicine... taking Baby Steps... really.. we're doing the work! But do we have a week, or a month, or 2 months?? Nobody knows, except God and maybe Dionne Warwick.

You may be wondering how I am emotionally. Well, I am going into isolation, a little. Typically after these reports I need a day or two to process my " new normal" and can't or won't really try to explain that to anyone. It's hard to define this time. I have to figure it out myself. I feel disappointed that there is a struggle. Excited that we are already this far. Wondering and dreading a little making it weeks more. A little paranoid about every contraction or twinge... But really, there's so much peace.

So today, I will work on my quilt. I'm embroidering her initials on one square. I was taking my time so I would have lots of projects to keep me busy for 8 weeks. I'm sewing a little faster now. =)

Thanks for the prayers. You guys are a lifeline.