I'm thankful for the glimpses, thankful that they have not slipped into a not-really-there place for me. They are real, they are alive somewhere, and they are irrevocably mine. I am thankful.
I wrote this for them last year:
How many? they ask
and I hold you in my mind
like a dream, like a secret prize
In the shadows of my heart
you age
through a veil, through a glass
you are alive
my daydreams keep time
losing teeth, climbing trees, sweaty sleeping blonde heads
always with me
in the shadows of my heart
And I am so rich
with my arms overflowing
laughter all around me
laughter in me
but always
hearing
the laughter beyond me
I am so, so thankful that you write about your precious twin boys. I always read with tears and thankfulness that though no one should have to know what this feels like, I am not the only one. Thank you for speaking about what is so often kept silent. I am still waiting for the ache (only one year old now) to get less painful...your words help me envision what it might feel like in 10 years.
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