When you left.... I said I didn't think I would ever laugh again.
But I roared and guffawed at your memorial.
You made me this way, you bad man.
I can't sit through a wedding or a funeral
Without a wicked little dialogue in my head,
Telling me what is so funny.

I thought I would never have
That strength and stability
Home, family ever again
But there was Mama.

I thought it was over
This comedy called
Parenting adults
Seeing how rich and how funny and how strange
But Georgia

I thought no one would charm the waitress
The cashier
The guy at the drive through
And do crazy things in public
But there was Bobby

I thought I would never
Catch someone's eye in church, or a meeting
And have to look away because something is so funny
I lost my friend, I thought
But Leah

I thought we had lost
The black and silver fire
Mystery and grace
Wrapped in hilarity
But.... Calvin

I thought the shoulders were gone
Those broad shoulders to ride on
And all the tricks and teasing
But then I found my kids up there
And there was me

It's not that I don't miss you
It's just that you left so much behind
For us to enjoy

Happy homecoming, Daddy
I hope you have a G5

Good so far... we're set up in a revival tent.... and staying at a
very nice Best Western. The weather is incredible, beautiful... I
heard it will get hot later, though.
Currently: R1 praying somewhere on the hotel grounds... Mommy surfing
the web in the room, R2 watching dolphins on TV, Toby taking catnaps....
if I just had some chocolate... oh wait, I do.
See ya

well... actually, I'm leaving in a Corolla...
We're off to San Antonio at 9 this marnin.... We have ministry tonight, tomorrow night, and twice on Sunday.

I assume the hotel has internet, but if there is no new post, you know why..

Lookee lookee - my great-nephew Isaac Allen! long awaited pix!

Please pray for little Noah Lightfoot... here's the latest from Jennifer:
Please keep praying for Noah... I talked with Wendy a few minutes ago and she says his oxygen level is still only in the low 90's with oxygen being given. Without oxygen, he drops down to the 80's... Anything at 91% and below is danger level. They are about to start him on IV Antibiotics to help clear up what is either severe bronchitis (week 3 of it) or pneumonia. So, he's not through the thick of it yet. However, we serve a Mighty, Healing, Miracle-working God and I believe together we can pray for Noah to have a major turn for the better TODAY!

Thanks for all your prayers!

Also, pray for Katie today as she has her CT scan...

Well, here I am! I missed my blog mucho mucho!

**edited to say: I forgot it was guys day! So, gents, go for it till noon.... and the topic will be chosen by Servant.... **

decided to give the ol' Good Book a whirl this morning... I opened to
a judgment section of Ezekiel.
Now, usually when this happens, I skip merrily by and find a nice
Psalm or Proverb instead. But today I read the judgment stuff.
What stood out... was he kept saying if Daniel, Job and Noah were
there, they alone would have been spared. This is such an interesting
trio to me. Why those three??
And encouraging... as most of us know, Noah had a rough couple years
there at the end... NC 17 stuff there in Genesis... and we know that
Job questioned God, and challenged His methods... I remember Daniel
being pretty much a straight arrow all the way, but the other two....
So that was kind of encouraging, in a redemptive sense. That God
"remembered" them despite their failures.
Not trying to say any kind of doctrine here... just an observation in
grace.

We went by Montgomery College yesterday. The doors may not be closed
there after all... continue to pray!

and I shall reclaim the internet this very night.
Peace

Sorry about yesterday... I posted that blog in the morning but it
appears to have not gone up until much later...

Last night's prayer meeting was good. I have a difficult time
"tapping in" to whatever's going on a lot of the time in prayer, but
I was able to pray last night.... something in my heart and my spirit
is turning on again... I want to see people saved. I want to pray for
people.
Here's the thing with me... I am SO not wanting to go back into
ministry mode.
Where I just run on my own steam, and maybe build something
"successful" but have no heart for God... I've done it before and I
have a healthy fear of doing it again. Because I reproduce myself...
and I end up with disciples of Jessica instead of disciples of Jesus.
Pray with me, pray for me.
I need to love God. I need to love His word. I need to change.

Today we're going to look around for other alternatives to MoCo for
the outreach... that door appears to be closed. So pray, also for
divine direction for us.

I miss my bloggerati. See you late tomorrow night...

Today through Wednesday night, I will be fasting the internet. So
here's the deal. I will come on in the morning and post a blog, but I
won't post another blog or read comments throughout the day. Capisce?

Radiant is fasting M-W for our upcoming ministry in San Antonio, and
for our upcoming ministry locally. I can't really fast food right now
(and I'm really just crushed about it ;) ), but the internet I can
fast, and that's meaningful for me anyway as I am a web junkie.
I will be checking my email daily, if Josh is reading this...

Pray with me for :
• personal revival in me; I want to get back in on what God's doing,
but not on my own steam. been there done that
• grace for me; to have faith and endurance .... not for fasting, but
endurance for the race I am just beginning in many ways
• for the Radiants, grace and blessings on their fasts
• for the San Antonio ministry- they are believing God for harvest...
pray with us for the ministry there Friday, Saturday, and Sunday
• For the Radiants: supernatural protection against attacks and sickness
• For the local outreach: direction for all the logistics, and
anointing.... we are planning Holy Ghost revival meetings but He has
to come! We are shooting for having our first meeting June 6th, and
there's a lot of stuff that needs to happen prior to that.

okay, and I think I'm done.
See ya tomorrow morning.

So last night, R1 was gone.... he's got this monthly overnight meeting. So, as usual, I seized the day to watch a movie he would NEVER watch...
This time, a Hilary Duff selection....
See, honestly, I like her little teenybopper romances... they are so sweet. And I read in Sacred Romance that there is this longing in a woman's heart for romance that really is a longing for God... so that's why I love cheesy little romances...

But, yeah, watching all the extras and whatnot kept me up till almost 3. And then Toby woke up at 7 and has been playing and grunting since then... SO I just said to heck with it and got up.
Normally, I'm like a merry sunshine good morning kinda gal no matter what amount of sleep I get... I mean I wake up WIDE awake... but I'm a little bleary today...

Oh, but the new playpen is great. He was way too big for his bassinet and I have been pre-grieving moving him into his room and crib.... but the playpen has bought me some time... it has a built in bassinet that is much bigger.
R2 is pretty concerned about why can't he get in the playpen... or, as it's called these days, a playyard. Bunk. It's a pen.

Man I am a sleepy sneezy hungry little mama.

Oh, and we'll try the story experiment another day, with more rules....

for arguing and speculating and conversating outside the story

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